Dawson College

Montreal police seized a simple note of apology, the address of Villa Maria high school and five boxes containing 242 bullets from Kimveer Gill’s bedroom hours after he shot one student dead and injured 20 other people at Dawson College last September.

“Sorry Mom and rest of family...” read the note, dated Sept. 13 at 2:22 a.m. and written on note paper.

Investigators also found a handwritten note in which Gill praises Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, the two students who shot and killed 12 classmates and a teacher at Colorado’s Columbine High School in April, 1990, before killing themselves.

Police also found 174 horror films on DVD and a disc entitled, “Shooting sprees ain’t no fun without Ozzy and friends LOL” in the CD player.

Police recovered a notepad from his car that contained hand-drawn sketches of routes leading to all four schools, Cmdr. Richard Dupuis said.

On the page with directions to the Universite de Montreal, Mr. Gill had scribbled the words "too big."

"There are indications he may have considered other schools," Cmdr. Dupuis said. "Did he go inside (them)? We don't know. They were rough plans he had designed, but nothing too detailed. Just what roads to take to get there."

The judge's ruling was based on a psychiatric report stemming from a month's worth of tests Rajan underwent at the Philippe-Pinel institute in Montreal, during which a psychiatrist determined he does not have the capacity to differentiate right from wrong and suffers from mental disorganization.

Now that a court has found him not criminally responsible for his actions, Rajan will not go to prison, but will return to the Philippe-Pinel institute for short-term treatment while a review board determines which hospital he'll be admitted to for further care.

An illegal-drug incident was the “unrelated matter” that had brought police officers to Montreal’s Dawson College just as a gunman began a shooting rampage in September, the Canadian Press reported. A pair of police officers were responding to a call from college security guards, who had detained two students on suspicion of possession of hashish, and the officers ran into the building just after the shooting began, the news service said. The officers’ quick intervention is credited with limiting the carnage, in which one student was killed and 20 other people were injured.

The students involved in the drug incident, who were identified only by the pseudonyms Sean and Albert, have mixed feelings about their role in the tragedy, but praised the unarmed security guard who had detained them, saying he also helped save lives.

Crown prosecutor Genevieve Dagenais said an acquaintance of Rajan's was alarmed by comments he made in the days following the Dawson shooting.

"And eventually he sent an e-mail to this person … saying that Mr. [Kimveer] Gill was a real soldier," Dagenais said, adding Rajan allegedly warned the acquaintance the same thing would happen again.

A special cyber squad became interested in Emard in the days following the Dawson shooting. He allegedly posted messages on vampirefreaks.com applauding Kimveer Gill.

The teenager also posted various pictures of himself with different weapons, as did Kimveer Gill, and made derogatory comments about various different minorities.

In his blog posted on vampirefreaks.com, Gill, who described himself as a huge Megadeth fan, had singled out the song À Tout le Monde, urging others to listen to it. He wrote in his blog that the song helped convince him to go on his shooting rampage that killed one and injured 19.

Megadeth likes to perform the song À Tout le Monde in Montreal because the title and lyrics are in French, Mustaine said in an interview before the concert.

The song's chorus says: "A tout le monde/ A tous les amis/ Je vous aime/ Je dois partir," which means: "To everyone/ To all my friends / I love you / I have to leave."

Mustaine was deeply offended when he found out Gill referred to the song in his online plans for Dawson.

"I was so angry that this guy would use my song, and that he would try and turn that beautiful song into something ugly and nasty," he said. The singer wrote the song about his mother, who died when Mustaine was young. "I had a dream that she came back to me, and said 'I love you.' That's the whole song."

The song is in memory of the living, Mustaine explained. "It's for those who lost their lives, and it's a gift to those who are in the process of healing."

There was no question in Mustaine's mind that Megadeth would perform the song in Montreal during their show Wednesday night. "[Gill] is not going to control us from the grave."

More importantly, Kimveer Gill will never be blamed for the actions of Kimveer Gill. The notion that Gill was just an evil man and that he and not the gun registry, violent video games and the Goth culture were responsible for the carnage will be rejected by the masses as being too simplistic; too George Bush-like. In a society where many people can't recognize the evil of Islamofascism, it is too much to expect people to recognize the evil of what was once Kimveer Gill.

In the end, all that was responsible for the actions of Kimveer Gill was Kimveer Gill.

But the litany of blame omitted someone, and there's only one person who should be blamed for Kimveer Gill's school rampage on Sept. 14.

Only one angel of death can dance on the head of this pin of sorrow and that is Kimveer Gill.

He is responsible for shooting 20 students and killing 18-year-old Anastasia De Sousa. He should not be permitted to become a victim.

"You wanna know why there has only been three school shootings in Quebec? It's because the people here don't have the balls to do it, as much as they want to ... as much as they plan it all ... make `hit lists' and just wish they had the guts that Eric and Dylan had ... you know ... the real victims of Columbine! They are looked up to by many bullied high school students ... and many believe that the bullies got what they deserved on April 20th, 1999.

"Kimveer will be greatly missed by the people who actually understood him ... the people who don't have their heads up their asses."

Here he is again, the loser with a grudge and a gun slithering up from the basement of a middle-class home where he fermented his immaturity, anger and resentments to full and deadly potency "interacting" with like creatures on the Internet.

His mom says he was "a good son."

The neighbours' comments -- the banality of this would be screamingly funny were it not for the horror of the event -- amount to this: He was quiet and kept to himself.

Aren't they always.

His resentment and anger are perfectly understandable.

He's a loser and losers spend their lives being angry and resentful.

It's one of the reasons they're losers. Life is something that happens to them. They aren't something that happens to life.

They aren't achievers.

Worst of all, he knows he's a loser, but failing the courage or will to do something about it and actually change, he decides to write his name in the pages of our times with gunfire, and paint a final statement with the innocent blood of students -- young people working toward successful futures.

His victims are everything he is not.

The ultimate proof he's a loser: His final statement, his final moments in life are desperately unoriginal. Just another loser in a long list of losers. The perpetrators of Columbine and Taber and all the others.

He was 25 years old.

Who among us is still so much an angry adolescent at 25?

Former high school classmates described him as normal -- "nothing out of the ordinary, just a regular high school kid," said Anthony Proce, who, like Gill, graduated from Rosemere High School in 1998.

Friends said he never dated in high school.

Mr. Proce and others said, far from the impression the six-foot tall Gill left on his Web site, he wasn't the victim of bullying.

"He wasn't a guy that got picked on, not at all -- who picks on a tall, big guy who could kick your ass if you picked on him?" said Dennis Pavia, another classmate who now plays drums for heavy metal band Diecast.

"He didn't dress like a rapper or a Goth or anything like that, more like jeans, T-shirts and sneakers," said Mr. Pavia, who said he usually saw Gill every day at school but wasn't close to him. "I remember Kimveer just being a friendly guy, always smiling. However he came to do something like [the shootings at Dawson] I wouldn't say is because of high school."

Alex Hullar, another former classmate, said he was shocked when he heard Gill's name on the radio yesterday.

"He was a pretty calm, relaxed guy," he remembered. "He had at least eight close friends and they always hung around together in high school. They were all very good students, very good grades."

He said Gill dressed normally, "never a trench coat and all that kind of stuff. I don't know where that came about."

He said he had not been in touch with Gill since graduation."It's going to be one hell of a high school reunion, I can imagine," he added.

Gill left few other marks. His graduation yearbook had a blank entry beside his photo.

But his online musings do not refer specifically to Dawson or his violent plans. However, he repeatedly emphasized that people planning a crime would be stupid to outline their agenda on the Internet.

The comments, made on a Livejournal site called The Trenchcoat over a number of months, included references to various school shootings in the United States and caused him to be banned from writing on the site.

In one, he defends the young people who were charged after a school shooting plot in Riverton, Kan.

"They wern't [sic] going to do it for real," Gill wrote. "They're just kids having a little fun. If they were really going to do this, they would not be posting messages on MySpace and telling people in their school about it."

Kimveer Gill did not restrict his violent thoughts to the blog he kept on VampireFreaks.com. He posted disturbing comments on other Web sites and allegedly jotted them down in a diary, where the entries indicate his mind was deteriorating.

Police investigators found the journal either at the scene of the shooting at Dawson College on Wednesday or while executing a search warrant at his parent's home in the Fabreville district of Laval.

"From what he wrote, you could tell that he basically hated humanity as a whole. He hated everybody. He hated black people, white people, rich people. He hated everybody," a police source said.

"It was very obvious his state of mind was deteriorating greatly over the last three weeks."

But the documents reportedly offer no indication as to why Gill chose to carry out a shooting rampage at Dawson College, killing 18-year-old student Anastasia DeSousa and wounding several other victims.

TVA reported last night that security cameras on the nearby Alexis Nihon Plaza captured Gill scouting out the scene of his attack on Aug. 10, a month before his rampage. Police are viewing the tapes.